Dear Teresa,
No one teaches us to be a mother, we learn instinctively and with a lot of love we come up with our children, from the moment we carry them in our belly. People say the kids choose their parents, and I question myself so many times why my son choose me? Because most of the time I feel so impotent to help him.
Today there are many lost young adults in this sick society, a generation that said are unhappy, when everything had in their lifes. They anesthetize themselves with drugs, alcohol, game, sex, all not to feel the pain of the futile life they take. They become a manipulative ones,a selfish, lying and aggressive person and blame parents the misery of life they take. Parentig this young adults is a lose cause.
No one teaches us how to deal with this, they lose respect for everything and everyone who wants them well and tell them the truths. They victimize themselves and try manipulate everyone to get what they want.
I’ve already kicked my son out of the house several times, and I end up opening the door again, giving in to false promises of change. Yes, I fail, over and over, because no one taught me that being a mother also means putting my heart aside for a greater good. No one taught me how to deal with these situations. There are moments when I feel like I’m going crazy and losing my sanity, because doing these thing is contra-natura to being mother.
There has to be a way out, I have to find a solution, and I ask help to God to inspire me.
With love.
Mary