Dear Teresa,
Love was my first word!
Before I learning to write my name, I learned to write “Love”. And Love was my cause to explore in my life and I became a love ambassador. Love for me, was a mood, a state of mind, a powerful energy in motion, and I choose it for my life.
So, you can ask to me: Has Love been enough?
No, it was not, but in name of Love I could transform me to deal with difficulties, with real challenges that requires another person that you never thought it could be possible you become. A new person with another mindset, an implacable, angry, dominate, cold person. I don’t speak, about destroy things or people, but in order to achieve a greater good, bigger than you proper interest, can you understand, me?
Since several years I debate with a challenge in my life, that’s grows and grows as time goes by, you know, since 2017, and I’ve been trying, I try very hard to fight against it, and I’ve fail constantly.
You see my profile and you see me smile, positive, strong, but you know? in almost of the time I feel deeply broken. But the thing is if you can’t change the other person that you want to help you must change yourself! It has been very difficult for me to transform myself into a person who is not my essence, but I have to do it if I want different results.
My son is all for me and he knows it! My son abuse of me and manipulate me in a mental e emocional way, since the adiction takes the comand of his life. The father want punishment me for ours divorce and never help me in the past, only a few months ago he started to face the problem of ours son, and finally in 2023 January we are syntony about what’s the best for our son. It is been a working in progress that I need to do in simultaneous with of dealing the problem of our son.
The father doesn’t receive our son in their house, don’t spend a holidays with him, and try every time discard him. He got married with a person whose exclude my son and humiliated him. This is a cruel world that not belongs to my son, and in the name of Love, I must work more my transformation in order to become more determinate person and help my son.
I ask help to God, to Universe, and all my Ancestors.
With Love,
Noa